This. Is. War.

I think that I have come to realize the effects of my Rockstar Energy Gum. I no longer fall asleep in class, but I seem to be a bit too awake. I need a happy medium. Anyway. I'm not a specifics person. I don't look into detail on a lot of things. I like to look at the general idea on many things, (excluding things such as music) and I'm expected by so many to notice the small things. I like the big picture, just as many like the detail... Maybe it's a guy thing... Maybe it's a me thing... I don't know. English research projects are a grimy little thing. I hate to tackle them, yet this one is due in about a month... I need to find a topic... I'll wait another few weeks.

To get through my day, I've realized that I need more than myself. I think music can suffice. I sat in the theater room today and just listened to Sarah McLaughlin. I laid on the stage and listened to nothing but her voice and my heart pound. I've never felt blood pulse through my heart and out into the rest of my body, but I did today. It was such a state of serenity. I laid on the floor for probably 20 or so minutes just feeling my blood pour into my veins and it was a strange feeling. I liked it. I think I may do that as a meditation technique from here on out.

Primary is headed to Dallas in less than 72 hours and I am ecstatic. I can not wait to be out there and get a feeling for this. I really want to move on and go around playing music for people. I think the Primary could do that here very soon. It excites me. It has always been a dream of mine. It is coming true. We will be recording in less than 72 hours. THAT puts a smile on this face.

Goodnight world,